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Still kickin’
Hello everyone :) I’m still around… Just still without Internet and don’t like doin this on my phone.
Vent/Rant/Prayer Request
I can remember the day we found out I was pregnant like it was yesterday even though it was in early October. I had missed the day before so I’d decided to test first thing that Wednesday morning. Hubby got up and went to work; I got up and peed on a stick. It was a cheap test, Walmart brand. I thought I’d messed the test up because a wave of pink completely covered both windows. So, I laid it to the side thinking I’d give it a chance and if I had messed it up I’d just take the other test we’d bought. (I figured in a newlywed household, a pregnancy test is something that should be kept handy) I went ahead and went about my business, making myself some breakfast and that kind of thing, all the while thinking about the test. I went back to look at it a few minutes later and, wouldn’t ya know it, there’s a positive on the thing. Still thinking “hey I don’t know if I messed that test up in the first place” I went ahead and tested again, this time with a Clearblue Easy Digital Test. 3-5 minutes later that word popped up on the screen. That one word that made my heart beat faster and my stomach drop at the same time - pregnant. The first thing I did was take a picture of both tests with my phone and send it to my husband. His screen is much smaller than mine though and he couldn’t see to read what the picture was. All he could see was two white sticks. He called and asked me what they said and I told him that I was pregnant. By this time it was around noon. I was so happy and nervous and anxious and every other emotion that you first feel. I couldn’t keep it all to myself and I knew my husband wouldn’t be home for at least a few more hours so I text one of my friends who lived right around the corner and told her. She told me to come over and we’d talk about everything and we did for a while. The next thing I know, it’s 4:00 and I get a call. The job I had interviewed twice for was mine. I could barely contain my excitement. Then I thought about what I’d found out just hours before. I didn’t know what to do. Everything was happening for me and I didn’t think anything would be denied me so I told the woman that I had just, that very day, found out I was pregnant and that if that was a problem or if they had another candidate who would be better considering my situation that I would completely understand a withdrawal of the job offer. Now that I think back on it, that may have been very foolish. I don’t know what I was thinking but they couldn’t open themselves up to a lawsuit by saying “oh well thanks for the info. In that case we want to hire someone else.” And so I turned in a 2-week notice and my other job and started a brand new one; a big girl job, full-time with benefits and an hour lunch. I will admit that I had a pretty rough first couple of weeks. I was late I think 8 days. It was hard for me getting up at 7:00 in the morning to be at work by 8 when I had gotten so used to sleeping until noon or after. That’s no excuse; I’d gotten myself a big girl job, I should have been able to act like a big girl and get up when I was supposed to. I got written up for my tardies. I straightened up. After that, I was always on time and most of the time I was even at least 5 minutes early. Around this time, about 2 weeks into this new job, we decided that since I was working a big girl job with big girl pay, then maybe we could finally afford to get a more reliable car. We knew we needed one, especially with a baby on the way. The car we had was not going to work to say the least. It had a rebuilt top-half motor that knocked like crazy (the mechanic said it was the fuel injectors), heat and air but no fan, it over-heated too easily, and had no power-steering. In short, it was a lemon and I couldn’t see carrying an infant around in that death trap. My dream car, for months, had been a Kia Soul. The first place we looked for a car was Kia. We wanted to see how much we were looking at spending if we decided to get one. Well, car salesmen being what car salesmen are, we got a brand new Kia Soul with only 7 miles on it that night with no down payment and no payment due for like 60 days. Even given the chance to talk and think it over, my husband thought we could manage it. He knew how badly I had wanted this car and for how long and he wanted to do it for me. I knew how badly I wanted the car but I still wasn’t completely convinced we could make the payments so I told him that yes I wanted this car and yes it was my dream car but I didn’t have to have my dream car at that very moment. I told him that I didn’t really care what kind of car I got as long as it had heating and air and power steering and a decent motor. He still thought we could do it. He still wanted me to have my dream car. So we got our 2012 Kia Soul. I was so proud of that thing! Nothing could touch me! I drove it to work and Walmart and the mall, I drove that car everywhere for the first couple of weeks. Things were going so well for us. We were both working, both bringing in pretty good checks. I hadn’t had anymore problems getting to work on time. I was being fully trained in every aspect of my new job. Halloween came and went, it started getting cooler and on what was supposed to be the luckiest day ever (11/11/11), it felt like the world crumbled down around me. I went to work that day, on time, and clocked in. I sat down at my desk, turned on my computer, loaded up all my programs that I’d need for the day, and found my list of calls to make. 30 minutes after clocking in, I was called to the office and told that the company “wanted to move in a different direction” and that “it wasn’t necessarily anything I had done” but that my “services were no longer required” and they were “going to have to let me go.” I was caught completely by surprise. I didn’t know what to do. As humiliating as it was, I started crying; and not just tearing up but full on sobs and big, fat, drown-in-your-sorrows kinds of tears. I managed to ask if I should stay and work out the rest of the day but was told no that that wouldn’t be necessary. To this day, I don’t know exactly why I was let go. My mom thinks maybe the corporate office got wind of my pregnancy and told them to fire me. I know that’s illegal, but even if it were true, I can’t prove it. They were too careful in their wording. I was devastated. I called my husband the minute I got in my car and told him we probably needed to go ahead and take the car back before we owed the first payment on it. He asked me why then I had to tell him about losing my job. I was still crying my eyes out and by this time, it’s a wonder I wasn’t dehydrated. He told me to stop by his job for a minute so I could tell him more about it. We talked for a few minutes and he told me not to worry about taking the car back right now. He wanted to try as hard as he could to keep it. After that, he told me to go on home and rest some. Some time later, I called my old supervisor up to see if my position had been filled already. She told me that she’d just hired somebody that week. Since then, it seems like everything has gone downhill for us. We had one heckuva time getting approved for Medicaid so that at least I would have prenatal care. I used my last paycheck to buy gifts for everyone for Christmas. I probably should have saved that money and used it for something more important, but Christmas has always been a big deal to me. I love giving people gifts and I couldn’t see getting gifts from so many people and not having anything to give back. We had a good Thanksgiving. We had a great Christmas and a decent New Year. But things still got harder for us. My husband’s job depends on the weather a lot of times, you see, and it’s also a small business so if 2 or 3 people take off or can’t work, a lot of times none of them will. My husband got a lot of off time for the holidays. He got 2 or 3 days off for Thanksgiving, he was off Christmas Eve and of course Christmas Day, but then comes the most difficult part. I’m not sure exactly how it came to be, but it was decided that they all take off the week between Christmas and New Years. After New Years, the weather kept them working sporadically for almost 3 weeks. That was 3 weeks of working one or two days, three if they were lucky. Now, the weather has cleared up save for a rainy day every now and then, but we can’t catch up because of all the time he lost at the end of last year and the beginning of this one. We’re so far behind, it doesn’t seem like we’ll ever be able to catch up. On top of all of our regular bills, we have to find a way to come up with a pretty good amount of money for taxes. We are both still so happy to be having a baby and we feel so blessed that our baby boy is as strong and healthy as he is. We still have so much love for one another. Fighting over money hasn’t become a huge issue as of right now. We both get stressed out. Him more than me because all this is laying on his shoulders. I feel so guilty sometimes because I know how much pressure he’s under and I can’t ever seem to help. Illegal or not, nobody wants to hire a pregnant lady. I’m terrified now, though, of what might happen when he comes home tonight. I watched, no more than an hour ago, a tow truck come in and repossess our Kia Soul today. My husband has never lost his temper with me. He’s never been violent. He’s rarely ever even raised his voice to me. But, stress and worry does things to people and with this new development, I wonder how he’s going to react. I love my husband more than I could ever begin to describe and I know he loves me. He’d have to in order to be able to put up with all the curveballs that have come our way recently and still want to be with me. We’re doing everything we can think of and it still doesn’t seem like its enough. I just don’t know where we can go from here. We’re looking at government help, but even that makes me feel like a huge bum. I don’t know exactly what I plan to accomplish by writing all of this. Maybe it’s just a vent. Maybe I’m looking for encouragement or similar stories so that I don’t feel like I’m the only loser on Earth. I know that if anyone found it suitable to say a prayer for us, it would help me tremendously.
Still no internet at apartment!
Please followers do not forsake me! I will blog and reblog again as soon as possible… Much love
How come I find out that everything I crave isn’t good for pregnant ladies?
It kinda sucks… #pregnant #pregnancy #cravings #foods #good #bad #healthy #unhealthy #food
Yeah…. It’s been a minute
And I am so glad to finally be back on tumblr! I’ve definitely missed it! The reason I’ve not been able to be on here is cuz the neighbor that I was bumming Internet from got it cut off. Therefore I’ve been Internet deprived for over a month. So that’s what’s been going on in my world. Not all good, not all pretty, but that’s the way life is isn’t it? We’re alive, we have a roof over our heads, people that love us unconditionally, and a baby on the way. All in all, life is good. #updates #rants #pregnancy #complaints #alabama #crimson tide #football #iron bowl #national champions #unemployed #thanksgiving #holidays #gossips #trimester #first #second #football #sue #glad to be back #random #pissed
Preggo Progress and a Question or 2
So… I am approximately 7 weeks and 2 days. I consider myself a lucky mother-to-be since I have only had mild nausea and this morning was the first time I actually tried to throw up. Of course there wasn’t anything there so I was pretty much just dry-heaving which made my tummy hurt. I woke up with some back pain this morning but it was more like nerve pain in my hip which was making its way around to my love-handles. I’m seriously beginning to hate our bed. I have joint trouble anyways and this mattress is about to kill my hips and shoulders. God bless my husbands heart he’s been so good to me and I’ve been horrible to him. It seems to me like he can’t do anything right (though I know that isn’t really the case) and he just takes it like a champ. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been going to the potty more so I’m washing my hands more or if it’s the weather getting cooler or if it’s the baby or if it’s any combination of those factors, but my hands are getting so dry! I honestly feel like a dragon! Now for my question: Do any of my other moms-to-be feel like you’re thirsting to death if you don’t have a bottle of water right beside you that is at least a little cool? I’ve had dry-mouth like crazy and I just wondered if anyone else had experienced that. I know I didn’t reply to any of you that answered my previous questions, but I appreciate more than you know the advice and answers you were able to give me. So thanks for that :) And now it’s time to be pampered a bit. Signed, #pregnant #pregnancy #babies #mommy #mommies-to-be #prenatal #questions #advice #discussion #morning sickness #pain #can't sleep #wonderful #husband #reptilian #hands #lotion #peeing #dry-mouth #water #cold #first #June 20 #7 weeks |
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